It is 6 1/2 months since your passing and many have said that it will get easier, Yeah, Right! I had you for 19 years and you were everything to me you were my whole life. I am having such a hard time cause all I had was you. You did everything for me and now how do I go on? It was just me and you everyday, I cant breathe my heart aches and all I do is think of you. I was not ready for this and this was not suppose to happen, you were suppose to come home and no one told me that you might not make it. Are not the doctor's suppose to at least give me some kind of warning or something, saying that you might pass? I need you so much and I'm not being selfish I do know that you are in a better Place you are home and no more pain or suffering, I just can't get use to being without you, I have no one and you know this. All I had was you Everyday, I am so lost. You said that I know what to do but CL I don't I try to remember how you would do things and it comes to me and then I do it. I just need you to let me know that you are still here beside me and then things will change. You always said we would be together forever and I hold on to that. I love you with all of my heart and I will be with you soon! FOREVER MINE-Your wife susie