I would of never left you if I had known you were not going to make it. No one told me you were that sick, no one said you were not going to make it in fact a few days before one of the hospital's main doctors came in to see you and said, "I had to come see this for myself, I thought for sure we were going to lose you when you first arrived but you proved us wrong and now you are well medication took care of your illness and the only thing now is for you to get your strength back and its all because of the Angel standing next to you" I called the hospital again at 6pm and spoke to nurse and nurse said you were sleeping and I asked is he ok? Nurse said Yes he is fine. I thought this was strange, I kept calling till my ride arrived. When I called at 8 pm nurse said that you had been asleep since she came on her shift and she was getting ready to go in and turn you, I told her to tell you I am on my way and that I love you she said she would. I called an hour later and and again she said you were fine and that you ate and did well when she turned you and you fell asleep I asked her if she told you that I love you she said Yes , that it was so cute cause when she told you this you said "I love you too" we laughed. My ride arrived at 10 pm and this is when I called hospital again to tell them my ride arrived and I was on my way this is when they put me on hold and doctor got on phone and said there has been a change that you passed away an hour ago! What, OMG how could this be, Why didn't anyone call me to tell me she said cause didn't want anything to happen to me knowing I was on my way. I lost it. I was on my way they said they were going to leave your body there till I got there and your daughter Tasia was on her way, I could not believe it What Happened? Why ? I feel that they did something to you cause the student doctor that I had an argument with two weeks before the one that kept insisting on comfort care and I disagreed with her all of sudden show's up the day I am not there and in the morning start's putting all these orders in and has all these test done and then leaves. All the time's I called they kept saying you were fine and then you pass and No one call's me?? I didn't even get to say Goodbye. I never even thought this was going to happen, I am so sorry I had to go and I tried so hard to get back to you, If I knew this was going to happen I never would of left and I would of said so many things that I wanted to say. You did know that I Loved You with all my heart and that I was going to have a hard time without you cause I would tell you CL, you have to fight and get better cause I could not make it without you, and you would say, "I know Sue, I know" Now your gone and I am so lost I feel like my whole life has ended, I have no one Im so all alone I feel empty inside, no care's and I have no one all I had was you. You knew I would feel this way. I remember you would tell me "don't cry Sue please don't cry " I miss you so much they tell me I have to let you go, how can I your already gone and Im here all alone my love of my life is gone. You did everything for me you are my soul mate my Life, now what? It's like now I'm trapped in a box that I can't get out of and no one hears my cries, and there is no one to rescue me to set me free. I Pray for you all the time and I will see you soon so please be there to cross me over so we can continue on forever more!